Sigh..

I have thought a long time to write this blog again..
After so much setbacks that i am facing, after all the bad outcome that arrives.
Looking forward for a new me..
After weeks or months of thought, at last i have found a dim of light where my path should lead me to.. at least i have found a piece or two to where a new 'me' is and all about...

Have you guys always thought to do something which you can't achieve..
Me too.. i am a human too..

I have thought about alot of things and done a lot of wrongs things, such as hurting people's feeling, rejecting what is mine, believes in lies, betray what i shouldn't, like what i am supposed not to..

Forgive me, i will not continue to sink into this, and i will do it..

When we stop from running away and started to slow down, look around there's still a place that needs you, the world still needs you, there is still a place or perhaps a new enviroment waiting for you or maybe you are suitable and you belong there, it's just that whether you are up to it or not, it's your time or not is not up to us.. but up to the 'up' one, it the fate, but i always believe fate is in your own hands..

You yourself lead your life, not me as a writer today, not your parent that born you or God that created you, you alone that choose to lead your life, everyone is given the choice to lead a life that they long waited for..

I recently had a lot of setbacks, i am facing of not promoting to Advance 1, not to get the position that i wanted, no to have the chance to compete, not to outshine like i used to be, not to be the apple's of teacher's and principal's eye, not getting the way and lifestyle that i long waited for..

This is life, i control my life, i am the mastermind that control my life and i believe i could change it.. eventhough the consequence is a dead end.
Agust is where my journey start if possible or where my journey ended, is also the time when i build my foundation or maybe where i should break the foundation myself..
I am now facing a real challenging and adventurous life each day untul that month..
You may not know, but i ain't no helping from anyone as this is my time to grow up, to see the world and to find where actually i belong to and also am i fit to join the world to compete with others..

In my life time, i have never achieve anything yet, this is not the end yet, it;s the beginning and i will be having the last laugh..

No title needed

Today, i have some pieces of me to announce..
I will be stopping the blog for a moment due to some extent..
I have a lot of problems i am facing and i still couldn't get my answers and solutions..
I seek help and wait for the outcome...
Good Luck everyone..
When all my problems are solve i will be updating this blog soon..
There's a will, there's a way..
To me problems are like supplements..need not worry

Happy B'day Aristo

Well, yesterday i didn't post any post due to some tiredness and so on.
Thanks for winnie/winny become one of my follower..
Thanks that i am still 'fat'..
Thanks that 'tasya' didn't force me to wash the dishes..
Thanks that 'macho' didn't bite me..((What...?? Bite..?? we will get back to that))

Happy B'day Aristo...
Before hand.. there some thing i need to blabber in this post..

Just before went to Aristo's B'day, i went to Nagoya Hill with Rendy, Narita, Yeni, April and 'L' change the world..
I knew Narita, Yeni & April there just in that moment..
They tell me some about the tuition centre and so on, about 'un' and some advices for university..
Well, in the party, at first it was quite boring.. then i knew Ellie down there.. and chat a lot..
She was also one of those who fated to return to the country and fought for it.. thanks ellie for undestand what i felt..

Going on..

When the party was ended, something really happen specially to me..
When 'Macho' was released from his kennel, he is there lickin me and suddenly he bite my shirt
Oh Josh.. lucky.."Aldo" saved me.. Fiuh..or else i will be in the hospital..

That's all for today..

April's Fool

Well, early in the morning, not yet fooling people or seeing people being fooled, i am just one of the victim..
My gf text me and ask me to call her straight away..in the middle of the dream, i called her by the way here's her text contains of.
"****,telp gw, cpat, penting banget"
i called her and she just welcome me a April's fools joke..
What the...
Next, as usual went to office and started a new day, planning to get some victims for myself..
Gang up with 'Leo' and hide one of the staff's key and let him realised that he lot his key..
Soon, someone called up, pretended to help him and told him his key is in the bike itself, he just run straight to downstair and what.. Everyone started to shout " April MOOOOPPPP "( btw, is that how it spelled )
happened some conversation
Leo : " A an .. koq kamu bego c "
A an : " Aku kan lagi sibuk kerja mana tau soal april mop"
Leo : " ....... "

Then feeling not satisfied enough, i text some friends actually is a lot around 9 or 10 people..
Here's the text contains of..

"Er, aq dipecat di tempat pkl, td pg supervisor aq pgl aq ke ruang meeting trus blg klo aq bwt kesalahan bsar jadi mrka gg bsa pake aq lg di tmpt kerja thu...then.. y gw gg taw skr hrus gmn..td mrk kc gw uang semacam pesangon gtu dan sruh aq plg n bsok jgn dtg lg.."

that's the sms contains of... I received 8 missed calls adnd 10 messages
5 of them know i was bluffing and they were
1.My gf
2.My little sister
3.Andy
4.So on.. ( tired typing )
5.My principal ( btw want to know what my principal told me ...???)

" Dear JuvE.. Ibu dah tau kamu pasti mau bohong ibu, tahun lalu ibu sudah kena, sudah kapok, kamu thu ya bukannya belajar yang giat dan pkl yang baik, malahan kurang kerjaan sms2 yang engak2 ke ibu, ibu thu lg rapat ini nanti dikirain guru ibu lagi nagapen pula... Fokus Nak... Fokus"

i ended up getting scolded rather than praising my talent...

The rest, the response almost the same ....

"Hah..Kq bisa, jadi mau gw gmn bantu, gw disini kalo gk salah mrka kyknya gg trima anak pkl lg..gpp tenang orang kek 'kamu' pasti dpat jalan keluar, juv, hati2, btw mau kami datang ???"

Fiuh, seeing people playing prank at each other, we didn't join, that's such a waste isn't it...??

With Love ( Haha...Irks )



Ju-V-nO

Irks...

When you see this title maybe a bit puzzled don't you..
Hey there, i didn't went to work, stayed at home technically..
Today's is my little sister birthday, i ain't getting her something..

Okay, well, i read some post, someone i mean 'jack' posted me into his blog, i am a 'sir' sounds like some kind of Sergeant or General and stuff..

Early in the morning what really took place in my life..
Firstly stomachache, shit.. didn't went to work as i planned
Secondly,i will steal my sister car perhaps or maybe i just give her some eggs in the face..
Thirdly,i confronted 'jack' as he said he isn't going to 'harass' her..
Fourth,'jack' she text you because she didn't want to face the music in the class when she didn't reply you, in fact i didn't mean it..
Fifth,I am dead sure you will say i mean it due to i am posting this..
Sixth,some guys text her and she didn't reply, only you she reply..
Seventh,i had a cough since two days ago, and i had pizza for lunch, shit.. it's all 'heat' products
Eighth,i need to get my project done a.s.a.p

Maybe that's all for today and we'll see what happens next in the pool..
i need to continue my project and it's important..

Sorrow

After reading some blog which i have been following, i feel rather sad, me too made mistakes in the past until now i still couldn't do any thing..

When i try to not angry with these people, i just couldn't make up my mind, really, and sometimes i just feel like going to suicide my self seeing things which was caused by my mistakes..

Sometimes, i feel like slapping my self but i couldn't do it.. i did everything just to make myself happy and i DIDN'T EVEN BOTHER WHAT THE PERSON AROUND ME MIGHT THINK AND MIGHT FEEL.. I JUST TAKE IT FOR GRATED...

F***,M*****F*****... i am so dumb ass.. today again, i made him angry, really i am the most useless guy in the entire earth, i am a community trash, an indispensable trash which i am still breathing until today, i made him sighed again, i made someone cry, i made him feel agitated and all still... but the worst scenario is that not only one person but two and is going to be more...

God, please stop the whatever it is and make me wake up, i feel that now, jumping off the second floor is the best choice, i am sitting in the balcony, writing this blog and thinking of jumping and let my head hit straight to the ground...really is an encouraging moment right now in this minute..

Choice Vs Regrets

After you read the title sure you will know today my blog isn't gonna talk about my life, my gf, and my sister either.

Good evening..

'CHOICE'
Choice is something which you select or you made it by yourself so please don't regret what choices that you have been made and what you have done...

Never too late to reconsider your choices, even though you have made the wrong choices, never mind just stand up and re make the choices..

Anyway, i feel that everyone in this world needs and always ask for second chance.. ME either, i needs second chance too... everyone make mistakes and remember , bear in mind that no
body's perfect..

'Regret'
Don't ever regret what you have done as i mentioned before..
always look at the positive side even though sometimes it really doesn't even have any positive side..
Anyway, what i wanna tell you guys in this post today is that what ever you have made up or any actions that you do, if it's wrong repentance not by doing regrets..
Always bear in mind, every action has its consequences..

You think i am bullshit, i am sorry
But..
If you think what i am thinking, then we are in the same boat..
whereas some of them try to regret for what he / she did in the past..

I strongly announcing to you all that i am not motivating you guys not to regret but just try to think first before you do..
Oops, am i saying myself, yes, i am someone who does and never even want to think what the consequences might be, and i am always prepared to face all kind of consequences, me too have a lot of regrets, hatred, may choices came and passed, i grabbed none but to let it pass, i have a chance to make my name but i don't, my father wasted a lot of money in me.. especially when i am having a further studies in the abroad.. this time i am dead sure i am not gonna waste his money again and i am going to prove it with actions not with arguments...

Guys, anyway, i still mentioned some of my past times...

The day after the b'day

Okay.. Long time no see..
First of all... i will be talking about yesterday incidents and i have read some blog ...
First, in the early morning, i went to 'ananda' school to watch the 'libala' and ..
yeah,,, the team disappoints me and i didn't cheer for them... the scoring is 74 to 17..
lose to 'ananda' team 'a'.. with to best shooter on it and is from 'kepri'..so what.. yanto's rocks

Second, i went to my friends home just across the street and stayed there for 10 minutes..

Third, i started my car, and.. something happened.. a girl, stared at me and smile, when i look at her again, she was ,, gone.. er,,am i looking something which i shouldn't look...??

Fourth, don't care, i drive to MM and meet up with some friends to watch 'dragon ball evolution' what the heck, where the tail, why is the dragon yellowish or golden not greenish...??

Fifth, my sister ended up watching for about 15 minutes only and so on..

Sixth, we ate our lunch and we ended up eating tahu tek tek.. what ever it is...

Seventh, we roam around, they bought some kind of photo frame.

Eighth, we sat down in the 'aw' and chit chat down there with two milkshakes and a chicken burger..

btw, we met tasya,felic, and who ever it is..

Went home... Had some dinner, i ate 8 pieces of chicken.. believe me.. accident happens..
Holy shit, where's my diet programme

Happiest Day ( in the month )

Well.. Good Evening..
I am so sorry to interupt in this middle of the night..
Today is my birthday . . . And i am proudly to announce now . . .

Firstly, i am so sorry that i didn't invite you all to my party, but then i am 'invited' too to the party.. hehe.. surprise party...

Organized by my GF , my little sister, my friends and my brother little
Thank you all..

T.T,,,

I am sorry to 'jack' that i didn't invite him and he knew that we are having party as i said, this is a SURPRISE ONE...

Okay, make it short, i was 'kidnapped' by them ( my little sister as the driver, antha hold my legs, natha hold my hands, tommy close my eyes and choke my neck..)

then they brought me in a journey for about 10 minutes.. then i was slipped in the 'steps' at Fatmawati and everyone was prepared to play prank with me.. hehe..
GUYS>> I APPRECIATE IT>> HAHA>>

then when we finished our 'cakes' some disaster happens.. actually that one is worse than Tsunami.. Wooow i am bringing some kind of natural disaster to my b'day disaster...
We went out, this time the kidnapper has change to ( rendy, natha, tommy maybe )

i am drenched with 'eggs' 'flour' 'water' is just kinda indonesian or maybe batam tradition haha..sounds smelly do you think so..just need to put me into the oven and i will become 'bakpao'
then i went home with tasya's bike, i mean motorcycle and came in a well dressed and smell in fragrance haha..

Btw.. here's the crucial part.. one of them ( i really don't know who, if i know who, i would certainly told you all )
someone put the bowl maybe was so enjoying his master piece ( that's me the piece, they are the master ) in the middle of the road and a car crashed.. argghhh... i was so afraid and that time i was chasing them to be my 'victim'..hehe.. evil aren't i..??

we went for 'SATE JUMBO' by warung ndeso.. i got the discount card..in the golden land food court infront of duta mas..

In the food court there happened some conversation

'Juveno' : eh, tadi gw dah bisa jadi bakpao bakar loh..haha..
'tasya' : iya dah taru tepung, telor dan air.. pembalasan selalu datang lebih kejam..
'rendy & antha' : itu bukan bak pao tapi 'bakpao lemak' yang makan tambah gendut..

then when the food come, they started to have somekind of 'ghost' or horror conversation and makes my little sister wanna cry... i am quite worried at first, but then she's alrite...here's something... someone is angry with me.. i am so sorry, yeah..
i think i am just finding excuse for myself but then i really didn't mean it.. guys.. spare me.. please...

Anyway, is night and i just wanna said THANK YOU TO
1. My GF
2. My little sister
3. Tasya
4. Boys
5. Tommy AW
6. Rendy
7. Si kembar ( antha & natha <>)
8. Audi
9. Aristo

------------UnKnOwN-----------

Guys..
I will tell you about my past..
Have you ever doubted your knowledge . . . ? ?
Have you guys paniced about what can you do . . . ? ?
Or have you guys feel that you yourself is stupid in some kind of sports which you try to achieve or some subject in class . . . ? ?
Have you guys ever think or cross in mind why are you writing this blog for . . . ? ?
Or you guys just like me friends . . . ? ?

Some write for 'her' . . . ? ?
Some write for 'him' . . . ? ?
Some write for 'it' . . . ? ?
Some write for 'self' . . . ? ?
Some write for 'sorrow' . . . ? ?
Some write for 'stress' . . . ? ?
Some write for 'anger' . . . ? ?

When i was working in this company, sometimes i was wondering..
When i make mistakes.. i will wonder..
Am i stupid in this kind of works..??
Am i not concentrating..?? but i am concentrating
Am i suitable working here...??
Am i helpful for them...??
Am i just a burden to them...??

When i was having the swimming practice, sometimes i was wondering..
When my time gets longer.. i will wonder..
Am i stupid..??
Am i not talented in swiming..??
Am i too fat to cause the speed become slower..??
Am i not concentrating..??
Can i resist until the end..??

When i am having course in the English class, sometimes i was wondering..
Am i wasting a lot of money for those subjects..??
Am trying very hard as many of them did.. that's what i felt..
Am i trying myself hard enough to cope the subject...??
Or am i just wanna join some kind of community...??

When i was down, i just felt that i really do not belong to this WORLD...
when i told myself, i can do it, i just couldn't do it..
when i told myself, i am not that stupid, it just ended up becoming more stupid..
when i tolf myself, determination, i just doesn't constantly able..

well, after all is just the past ... forget the past and see the future
Look forward and guys.. Keep Smiling.. :)
@(*0*)@

Shit Happens

Early morning, start with a new smile, a new costume and a new look...
In the early morning, i had a 'soto' maybe..?? ( a soup with vermicell and some chicken, veggie on it)
Then otw to the office. SHIT...!!! ( Caught in traffic jam ) then late for works, approximately 15 to 20 minutes and didn't face the music..
Now, there is someone sitting beside me and gazing at the screen, smiling to himself ( is he crazy)...
and he claimed that he didn't understand English, i doubted him so much...
He is a bit crazy sometimes, laughing at himself, always look at his hand even though he didn't wear a watch and he always look inside his pocket even though he put nothing inside and he always answer the phone even though no one phone, is he a moron... ( i am so sorry, no other word could describe you) and the climax is this...
Ever once, i saw him going to the restroom without closing the door and he start shooting his urine around and i am EXTREMELY sure he has lost something in his brain cells..
Josh, Someone save him ( NOT ME>>)
Guys, if you ever meet him, don't go near or else you will regret for the rest of your life
Am i exaggerating...??or so on..??
Who's so mean to my 'little sister' by teasing her using her own urine for some experiments..
Damn..

Life's Never Same Again

Good morning..
Guys...
See the title, yeah..
First of all, wake up, in the middle of daze, eye's full of shit, hair is undone, scratching butt and writing the blog..
Seemed that i have been so OBSESSED by this blog thing and i just could reach my hand and up to date my blog even though i didn't do that as i have a lot of activity..

When the day i started my 'Business' i feel that my life was never the same again, my daily routine, my daily social life, my activity and etc..
Seems that what i have in my mind was how to expand my business instead of thinking to lead a ordinary life..

Dude,,,
Don't follow my foot steps

When i started that business, dude, my life with my gf and my little sister seems that a lost in transactions, no buyer nor seller...

I just couldn't think of anything except of trying to amend
Yes... Nato ( No Actions Talk Only )

Guys, any comments ... ??

I'm Done..!!

Phew.. after much struggling

i still drop by and write this blog again anyway, quite tired even though i didn't perspire ..

after i wrote the blog this morning, happened quite alot of incidents..

First, after that blog, in the office it happened black out and then about one hour and few minutes..

Second, after i finished one of the tax payer document, mr.director gave me again..

Third, again and again he gave me..

Fourth, phew, even though i am tired, i didn't complained and i ask for more..

Fifth, about 5 in the noon, received a call from jakarta, it was my dad . . . ! ! !

Sixth, he asked me to fetch him (T.T) far enough from jodoh to hang nadim..

Seventh, we ( us, with his friends ) went out and have a dinner, something to do with crocodile leg...( you see what i mean )... i am afraid what happpened if one day i wake up and my body is covered with crocodile scale.. Phew..

Eighth, nothing more, daydream and staring infront of this computer, blogging again..

Ninth, you found that my writing style has changed...?? Yeah, i saw one of the blog and tried to use it..

Tenth, I found a server that is cheaper than the one i am using now.. Hahahaha...

Eleventh, Good lUck for everyone and good nite..

Twelveth, Sorry, should be good morning because i save and post it on early morning when everyone oes to school so.. don't tell anyone.. it' just me and you...

It's comin

Guys...
Good morning..
I am writing in this early morning due to some obstacle that i think i am going to face sooner or later...
Bringing this topic up it doesn't mean that i am proud or somehow but then i just couldn't tell her what i felt...
Yes, i agree that what she said was right, yes i agree that what she said was all fact but then i just don't understand why these few days what am i have been busy for...
My top up business ...??
My little sister ...??
My swimming club ...??
or is it my English course and exam i am undergoing for ...??

Guys.. Let me explain and hope that she would read this, i will try my best to amend this relationship, this relationship is just like a plane in the sky having a turbulence.. JOSH...

Btw, guys, do you find it boring in my blog, about me, my life, my sister, my girl friend, my friend, unfortunate things, hehe.. i will try my best to add some more..anyway, get back to our topic..

I think i just need to work out with more communications and try to text her more and never ever neglect her again..
She text me this morning and i found it quite awkward to hear ( Not directly as in a text message ) that she said our relationship has turned into a cold water, not warm anymore..IS THAT TRUE...????

Well, after all, i visited her yesterday, trying my best, even though i visit her, i just couldn't utter a word.. am i stupid or just because of KARMA.. laughing at one of the friend who try to get near my little sister.. Save me...!!!!

Fyi, Today is cloudy in weather, if you wanna do some exercise, is best for today and please bring your umbrella i mean ' umbrella' not the Rihanna's song ' ella , ella, e e e '

Can't wait to post a new one.. we'll see and these days i think i will be spending my time in the office even though the school programme told us NOT to really treat ourselves as a staff of the company.. and i am treating myself as one of the members so that i could receive more knowledge and win the ticket to my CoMpEtItIoN...
Oh, yeah, recently i just opened a blog, feel free that blog is majority in Movies Comments..
here you are layartancepmania.blogspot.com
if i am not wrong.. See You

Drop by and give me comments..

Argghhh...

Again.. Today my test will still go on in my tuition centre.This whole month i am having exam there for the mid course exam covering grammar, coprehension cloze, editing, vocabulary and etc. And i am damn sure thati will score an 'F' for my grammar especially as that was my worst.
When i was in Singapore it was bad but then now it's from bad to worst. Argghhhh..today my exam will be editing, you know there will be few paragraphs and you spot the errors and do the corrections. Btw, talking about life again, i am so sorry to those people around me, if i have wronged you and we had a tiff for some misunderstanding.

P.S We never know what it will happen later just do your best..!!!

Saying HELLO

Hi.. Long time never blogging again. lately i opened my blog and saw someone give me a comment. hehehe... he finally found my blog.Due to some extent..Today is not really interesting at all. Well is still morning and i have not been through any new kind of 'adventure' and i will be writing my blog starting on this may 1st because i will be ending my school work programme on this April 31st. these days i have been through quite a lot of life experience, i started a business and have a kind of merger, not really interesting though and thinking is it a good activity for me or just to have 'fun'. It's been a while after i opened my business and i have been quite a cold mode to my girl friend though even i realised and i just couldn't do a thing. Am i stupid too..?? Am i a guy who can't treasure what i have now and take it for granted..??

To whom it may concern.. Life isn't always bed of roses and Rome wasn't built in a day..
Btw, any english errors.. spot them and let me amend them

Face the MUSIC guys..

Yesterday night, wew i was so ashamed that i have to face the music, i knew that what i did was wrong. Next time it won't happen again, i was so foolish and ungentlemanly to not asking him for the permission and get the bud on it...
Think hard and work smart next time is the best statement for me..
Thought it over and over, i can't pull myself out with it, need my beloved girlfriend to remind me over and over, afraid that she might get bored and stop loving me... IS THAT TRUE..??
i am so muddleheaded and sometimes forget who i am and didn't think carefully and in detail..now, my weakness is a short time of happiness and NEVER think of it's consequences..
i must stop having that way of thinking and try to get rid of it.. a routine is quite hard to get rid of in our life isn't it..??
Haiz, readers, don' be like me and wake up..Call yourself a men...??
haha..
Then get yourself started and stop dreaming about having fun and not thinking of it's consequences again all right..??

When Obstacles become visible when we lose sight of our GOAL..
P.S I missed my lady... She is in school now while i am on a working programme... I love my dear... She always remind me.. Miss her

The journey which was started 'LOVE..??'

4Th January where i first met her..she was wearing a black t - shirt, writing stuff like i love ahm thing in her cloth and wears a short pant, holding her Sony Ericsson's cell phone and the purse in the right hand side.. she glance at me and asked her best friend who am i.. at first i was so happy to see his little brother doing a "Safety Landing" using a small and red bike..cool that's really awesome.. i don't really care about her much as she sat down in the back of 'my' car..

10Th January, where my second chance to met her in a really right time, place, and situation which we gathered in the swimming pool about 10 people.. she was not swimming as she does not know how to.. she made sushi and she forgets her sauce...she is so muddle some... but i like her way of rejecting to give me the sushi as in.." Suapin Dunk.. Gw bakal kalah taruhan nihh..." She replied " Emank gw dapet opo coba.. gw juga bukan sapa sapa loe.." that day before she gone home, i asked for her telephone number and she gave me.. it does not end there.. i pursuit her until her home, bringing some guys so that i will feel more comfy in her house..

one day don't know when is the first time where 'we' not both of us have a dinner in somewhere near my house, she sat opposite to me, wearing a white t - shirt and a red short pant and she was smiling all the time.. that time she knew that i like her and she still couldn't make up her mind whether she likes me or not..i still remember that day is Friday where the next day she will be going to Medan for holiday ... AHA ... it's lunar new year.. where there is something i missed to tell everyone ( I assumed that every single person on the earth read this ) ...

Thursday where the day before the 3rd paragraph, at noon both of us WALK to her dentist which lasted almost 3 hours .. 2 hours waiting and 30 minutes of travelling.. hehe.. sound a bit fun and indeed.. i still remember when we entered the check up room and the dentist directly asked her whether i am her boyfriend or what.. any relationship somehow.. i just smiled ..

31st January night, we had a fight even though we have not yet a couple.. that's so RIDICULOUS... HUH.. but then that night really breaks her heart and she was confirmed about her feeling...

12Th February night, in phone i proposed to her... something happens... actually i feel like writing this word " occured" and the answered is YES but it ended up a quite long process..

14Th February night we went out.. i proposed to her AGAIN.. in a formal way.. having a face to face conversation.. thats so dumb.. haha.. anyway think about the past...it's fun and yet enjoyable..

the thing is that whenever i see her keep quite makes me wanna smile or laugh... HAHA..
thank's

Sorry !!!

So sorry... that's my first words... i am apologising that to all of you who have read my previous blog that i was so arrogant and discriminate that guy who was actually a close friend of mine and i think that it is not polite to speak ill of others especially on the net and in my blog... thank you

BORING....^^

Today is my 3rd time writing this blog tingii... whoaa so bored doing my PKL ( Praktek Kerja Lapangan ) or as people called it MAGANG... I knew that this day will be quite boring in the office that's why i brought my notebook here and get a connection to surf the internet and for quite some time i have been spending an hour reading a guy's blog which contents it's all about my little sister..He is so OBSESSED with her..haha... I am quite proud of it to have that sister but then i will not act as she have not feel being bothered by and hope that this guy will not be reading this blog or else he will be having the chance to plan for defensive barricade..hehe sounds like having a military clashes somehow..hmm...i dont really bother a lot about my work down here because it doesn't even have a challenging situation as this is my routine and it's gonna be my bowl of rice..
i will be earning my wealth in this kind of work...Some people here are quite dummies..they think that they are doing their university and can show off to us which is still doing our JC...Haiz I can say to them ... FUCK OFF son of BITCHES..sorry i am so rude but i just try to release on the blog itself rather than get mad at those people and i had promised my lady...Thinking about her makes me smile...
i missed her right now..
i care for her.. and not forgettin my little sister..

Boring but quite alot to say in this blog...are you bored with my post..anyone readin???comment please and it's my honour to have your comment..
FYI. it's iaj2y.blogspot.com open it to find out more about the guy...btw, he used to be quite a close friend of "mine"....see the sign???

No title needed.. because i just wanna tell you my point of view in this case

when i learned about a young and promising young man who commited suicide in the NTU ( Nanyang Technology University ) after stabbing his Prof..
Sad though to see this tragic disaster happened exactly two days ago..
i have read his blog and think that he is a typical kind of person..
he should have kill him not let him suffer instead..
and if you think that commit suicide will be the best way to solve problem, so be it then..
Life is yours but for those who read my blog and i am advicing you not to do that because life is precious and what god gave you, you should treasure it or you will lose the authority on that..
a young and promising young man who has a very bright future awaiting for him..
who won the olimpics in physics subject in mexico, who has a not full scholarship which will be terminanting soon just because he can't get his work done right up...
Why must it be so cruel to a young man like that...
i am just frustrated after hearing about this..


P.S am i too cruel about "kill him"....??
Btw..Post me some comments if needed to..

Thank You,
Best Regards

Hamster

It just happened

when my girlfriend and i walk along in one of the amusement park. We passed by many shops and souvenir stands. When we arrived in a small fast food restaurant where both of us sat down and had a hot chocolate drinks, some of her friends saw us and came to us. Chit chat with her for a while and ask whether i am her boyfriend and she just smiled and said no he isn't, that kind of feel, i think most of us will be so frustrated and agitated to hear that...
but it just came out of her mouth, i just couldn't utter a word when she said that. it just seemed like the world is going to end soon, that minute i just feel like digging a hole and go in with it...Arggghh....!@#@!$#!@*#^*@!&#%!@&^$%&^@!%#









Lucky, it was just a dream, when i wake up from the dream, my face was full with beads of perspiration and thank god that this isn't a truth and it will not be a truth meaning hope will last long...
No more short relationship anymore..

I have thought it over

Sorry to interrupt..I have thought about it and try to make amendments.. I think that my life shouldn't be that suck or bad.. I'm sorry if it is a bit rude to say suck but then when i struggle in my life i came across a lot of obstacles..but then when i think about it again, i don't wanna have that kind of life..sometimes when i stop running and try to look around.. i suddenly realize that my life is full of people who loves me.. in example, my girlfriend and my little sister..
For me, both of them are mine and nobody could steal them or even snatch them away from me...NEVER...i care and love them as i could but one day, if i lose one of them then my blog ends here..there will be no more further consideration on writing this blog, no more meaning...
I change Life's Suck become My Journey is to amend and to let my girlfriend and my little sister know that they mean a lot to me... well you may think that why i never write my family members or maybe you would think i have a bad relationship with them...You are WRONG because this blog is mean for my girlfriend, my little sister and I...
Thank You..



P.S : What if my girlfriend read about it...and my little sister.. Hehe..

The reason behind the scene..

Why i make a blog for myself...am i that unlucky...???
I choose to make my blog is to residue my anger and temper..
My target is to pour out my sorrowness and sadness in this blog..
I didn't think of letting anyone see and it is none other than my plan..
Thanks if you wanna read but then please keep it shut..Don't force me to go any further..
Cause let my life SUCK IT UNTIL THE END...NOBODY COULD DO ANYTHING TO STOP THE UNFORTUNATE EVENTS O BEFALL OVER ME...YOU COULD HELP ME MOURN BUT NOT LAUGHING AT IT OR PROBING ABOUT IT..PLEASE..OR MAYBE WHAT I AM THINKING WAS A WRONG THOUGHT YOU COULD TELL ME AND ASK ME TO STOP..THANKS..FOR WASTING YOUR PRECIOUS TIME IN READING THIS CRAP...THIS IS REALLY A CRAP

The Truth is...

Am i taking things for granted...??
Am i the one who always makes mistake or am i the one who always become the scapegoat..
Sometimes i think that the world is unfair...Sometimes i think that the world is beautiful..
What is it...??? We don't Know...The fact is...My Life is full of unfortunate events that always fall over to me... Lucky i got two people in my life..which i always relying on and always seek my solutions when i am in the dead end...none other than my grandma and my girlfriend...now i got three actually..my sister..she's cute, smart and some said she looks alike with me..
i am looking forward at where one day my life will be full of color..
Oops... I have forgotten to introduced my little sister...
Name : Secret
Age : 15 years old now...
B'day : 31th March...6 days after me..
Location : Batam
School : Yos Sudarso
Why i regard her as my small sister because she looks alike, because i knew that both of us need someone to care.. hehe.. that's my point of view.. i really don't know whether she will be reading this but that's my opinion.. and when one time where we hang out she told me that she is looking forward to have a "BIG" brother... you see the quote... haha .. Sounds funny isn't it???
yeah i am a big guy in shape..size..experience..and age of course..

Believe me..!!

This sunday, my aunt will be coming to my country for sightseeing..
Without hesitation, i agreed to be her tour guide..
i thought that will be a great help for my family..
one of the family member aka Ken...
thought that i will be earning some profit from touring my aunt...that's ridiculous and so mean of ken...
Instead of praising me , ken accused that i will be earning things or taking advantages from my aunt and friends...Haizzz...
why can't ken believe me...what have i done wrong...???

Morning Fight

5 minutes before i left for my work...i have to fight with my family members..whereas i seldom eat at home... i found that i missed my homecook soup...i requested but it seemed that they don't even care about my request and said that ask grandma to do the cooking... i stared to quarell with them like they don't even care about me anymore...