Sigh..

I have thought a long time to write this blog again..
After so much setbacks that i am facing, after all the bad outcome that arrives.
Looking forward for a new me..
After weeks or months of thought, at last i have found a dim of light where my path should lead me to.. at least i have found a piece or two to where a new 'me' is and all about...

Have you guys always thought to do something which you can't achieve..
Me too.. i am a human too..

I have thought about alot of things and done a lot of wrongs things, such as hurting people's feeling, rejecting what is mine, believes in lies, betray what i shouldn't, like what i am supposed not to..

Forgive me, i will not continue to sink into this, and i will do it..

When we stop from running away and started to slow down, look around there's still a place that needs you, the world still needs you, there is still a place or perhaps a new enviroment waiting for you or maybe you are suitable and you belong there, it's just that whether you are up to it or not, it's your time or not is not up to us.. but up to the 'up' one, it the fate, but i always believe fate is in your own hands..

You yourself lead your life, not me as a writer today, not your parent that born you or God that created you, you alone that choose to lead your life, everyone is given the choice to lead a life that they long waited for..

I recently had a lot of setbacks, i am facing of not promoting to Advance 1, not to get the position that i wanted, no to have the chance to compete, not to outshine like i used to be, not to be the apple's of teacher's and principal's eye, not getting the way and lifestyle that i long waited for..

This is life, i control my life, i am the mastermind that control my life and i believe i could change it.. eventhough the consequence is a dead end.
Agust is where my journey start if possible or where my journey ended, is also the time when i build my foundation or maybe where i should break the foundation myself..
I am now facing a real challenging and adventurous life each day untul that month..
You may not know, but i ain't no helping from anyone as this is my time to grow up, to see the world and to find where actually i belong to and also am i fit to join the world to compete with others..

In my life time, i have never achieve anything yet, this is not the end yet, it;s the beginning and i will be having the last laugh..