Sigh..

I have thought a long time to write this blog again..
After so much setbacks that i am facing, after all the bad outcome that arrives.
Looking forward for a new me..
After weeks or months of thought, at last i have found a dim of light where my path should lead me to.. at least i have found a piece or two to where a new 'me' is and all about...

Have you guys always thought to do something which you can't achieve..
Me too.. i am a human too..

I have thought about alot of things and done a lot of wrongs things, such as hurting people's feeling, rejecting what is mine, believes in lies, betray what i shouldn't, like what i am supposed not to..

Forgive me, i will not continue to sink into this, and i will do it..

When we stop from running away and started to slow down, look around there's still a place that needs you, the world still needs you, there is still a place or perhaps a new enviroment waiting for you or maybe you are suitable and you belong there, it's just that whether you are up to it or not, it's your time or not is not up to us.. but up to the 'up' one, it the fate, but i always believe fate is in your own hands..

You yourself lead your life, not me as a writer today, not your parent that born you or God that created you, you alone that choose to lead your life, everyone is given the choice to lead a life that they long waited for..

I recently had a lot of setbacks, i am facing of not promoting to Advance 1, not to get the position that i wanted, no to have the chance to compete, not to outshine like i used to be, not to be the apple's of teacher's and principal's eye, not getting the way and lifestyle that i long waited for..

This is life, i control my life, i am the mastermind that control my life and i believe i could change it.. eventhough the consequence is a dead end.
Agust is where my journey start if possible or where my journey ended, is also the time when i build my foundation or maybe where i should break the foundation myself..
I am now facing a real challenging and adventurous life each day untul that month..
You may not know, but i ain't no helping from anyone as this is my time to grow up, to see the world and to find where actually i belong to and also am i fit to join the world to compete with others..

In my life time, i have never achieve anything yet, this is not the end yet, it;s the beginning and i will be having the last laugh..

No title needed

Today, i have some pieces of me to announce..
I will be stopping the blog for a moment due to some extent..
I have a lot of problems i am facing and i still couldn't get my answers and solutions..
I seek help and wait for the outcome...
Good Luck everyone..
When all my problems are solve i will be updating this blog soon..
There's a will, there's a way..
To me problems are like supplements..need not worry

Happy B'day Aristo

Well, yesterday i didn't post any post due to some tiredness and so on.
Thanks for winnie/winny become one of my follower..
Thanks that i am still 'fat'..
Thanks that 'tasya' didn't force me to wash the dishes..
Thanks that 'macho' didn't bite me..((What...?? Bite..?? we will get back to that))

Happy B'day Aristo...
Before hand.. there some thing i need to blabber in this post..

Just before went to Aristo's B'day, i went to Nagoya Hill with Rendy, Narita, Yeni, April and 'L' change the world..
I knew Narita, Yeni & April there just in that moment..
They tell me some about the tuition centre and so on, about 'un' and some advices for university..
Well, in the party, at first it was quite boring.. then i knew Ellie down there.. and chat a lot..
She was also one of those who fated to return to the country and fought for it.. thanks ellie for undestand what i felt..

Going on..

When the party was ended, something really happen specially to me..
When 'Macho' was released from his kennel, he is there lickin me and suddenly he bite my shirt
Oh Josh.. lucky.."Aldo" saved me.. Fiuh..or else i will be in the hospital..

That's all for today..

April's Fool

Well, early in the morning, not yet fooling people or seeing people being fooled, i am just one of the victim..
My gf text me and ask me to call her straight away..in the middle of the dream, i called her by the way here's her text contains of.
"****,telp gw, cpat, penting banget"
i called her and she just welcome me a April's fools joke..
What the...
Next, as usual went to office and started a new day, planning to get some victims for myself..
Gang up with 'Leo' and hide one of the staff's key and let him realised that he lot his key..
Soon, someone called up, pretended to help him and told him his key is in the bike itself, he just run straight to downstair and what.. Everyone started to shout " April MOOOOPPPP "( btw, is that how it spelled )
happened some conversation
Leo : " A an .. koq kamu bego c "
A an : " Aku kan lagi sibuk kerja mana tau soal april mop"
Leo : " ....... "

Then feeling not satisfied enough, i text some friends actually is a lot around 9 or 10 people..
Here's the text contains of..

"Er, aq dipecat di tempat pkl, td pg supervisor aq pgl aq ke ruang meeting trus blg klo aq bwt kesalahan bsar jadi mrka gg bsa pake aq lg di tmpt kerja thu...then.. y gw gg taw skr hrus gmn..td mrk kc gw uang semacam pesangon gtu dan sruh aq plg n bsok jgn dtg lg.."

that's the sms contains of... I received 8 missed calls adnd 10 messages
5 of them know i was bluffing and they were
1.My gf
2.My little sister
3.Andy
4.So on.. ( tired typing )
5.My principal ( btw want to know what my principal told me ...???)

" Dear JuvE.. Ibu dah tau kamu pasti mau bohong ibu, tahun lalu ibu sudah kena, sudah kapok, kamu thu ya bukannya belajar yang giat dan pkl yang baik, malahan kurang kerjaan sms2 yang engak2 ke ibu, ibu thu lg rapat ini nanti dikirain guru ibu lagi nagapen pula... Fokus Nak... Fokus"

i ended up getting scolded rather than praising my talent...

The rest, the response almost the same ....

"Hah..Kq bisa, jadi mau gw gmn bantu, gw disini kalo gk salah mrka kyknya gg trima anak pkl lg..gpp tenang orang kek 'kamu' pasti dpat jalan keluar, juv, hati2, btw mau kami datang ???"

Fiuh, seeing people playing prank at each other, we didn't join, that's such a waste isn't it...??

With Love ( Haha...Irks )



Ju-V-nO

Irks...

When you see this title maybe a bit puzzled don't you..
Hey there, i didn't went to work, stayed at home technically..
Today's is my little sister birthday, i ain't getting her something..

Okay, well, i read some post, someone i mean 'jack' posted me into his blog, i am a 'sir' sounds like some kind of Sergeant or General and stuff..

Early in the morning what really took place in my life..
Firstly stomachache, shit.. didn't went to work as i planned
Secondly,i will steal my sister car perhaps or maybe i just give her some eggs in the face..
Thirdly,i confronted 'jack' as he said he isn't going to 'harass' her..
Fourth,'jack' she text you because she didn't want to face the music in the class when she didn't reply you, in fact i didn't mean it..
Fifth,I am dead sure you will say i mean it due to i am posting this..
Sixth,some guys text her and she didn't reply, only you she reply..
Seventh,i had a cough since two days ago, and i had pizza for lunch, shit.. it's all 'heat' products
Eighth,i need to get my project done a.s.a.p

Maybe that's all for today and we'll see what happens next in the pool..
i need to continue my project and it's important..

Sorrow

After reading some blog which i have been following, i feel rather sad, me too made mistakes in the past until now i still couldn't do any thing..

When i try to not angry with these people, i just couldn't make up my mind, really, and sometimes i just feel like going to suicide my self seeing things which was caused by my mistakes..

Sometimes, i feel like slapping my self but i couldn't do it.. i did everything just to make myself happy and i DIDN'T EVEN BOTHER WHAT THE PERSON AROUND ME MIGHT THINK AND MIGHT FEEL.. I JUST TAKE IT FOR GRATED...

F***,M*****F*****... i am so dumb ass.. today again, i made him angry, really i am the most useless guy in the entire earth, i am a community trash, an indispensable trash which i am still breathing until today, i made him sighed again, i made someone cry, i made him feel agitated and all still... but the worst scenario is that not only one person but two and is going to be more...

God, please stop the whatever it is and make me wake up, i feel that now, jumping off the second floor is the best choice, i am sitting in the balcony, writing this blog and thinking of jumping and let my head hit straight to the ground...really is an encouraging moment right now in this minute..

Choice Vs Regrets

After you read the title sure you will know today my blog isn't gonna talk about my life, my gf, and my sister either.

Good evening..

'CHOICE'
Choice is something which you select or you made it by yourself so please don't regret what choices that you have been made and what you have done...

Never too late to reconsider your choices, even though you have made the wrong choices, never mind just stand up and re make the choices..

Anyway, i feel that everyone in this world needs and always ask for second chance.. ME either, i needs second chance too... everyone make mistakes and remember , bear in mind that no
body's perfect..

'Regret'
Don't ever regret what you have done as i mentioned before..
always look at the positive side even though sometimes it really doesn't even have any positive side..
Anyway, what i wanna tell you guys in this post today is that what ever you have made up or any actions that you do, if it's wrong repentance not by doing regrets..
Always bear in mind, every action has its consequences..

You think i am bullshit, i am sorry
But..
If you think what i am thinking, then we are in the same boat..
whereas some of them try to regret for what he / she did in the past..

I strongly announcing to you all that i am not motivating you guys not to regret but just try to think first before you do..
Oops, am i saying myself, yes, i am someone who does and never even want to think what the consequences might be, and i am always prepared to face all kind of consequences, me too have a lot of regrets, hatred, may choices came and passed, i grabbed none but to let it pass, i have a chance to make my name but i don't, my father wasted a lot of money in me.. especially when i am having a further studies in the abroad.. this time i am dead sure i am not gonna waste his money again and i am going to prove it with actions not with arguments...

Guys, anyway, i still mentioned some of my past times...